faggot – not just a bundle of sticks anymore

this is just a reaction video.  might do some commentary later but just wanted to share how i felt in the moment.

please feel free to leave your thoughts/comments at the beep.

and if your job is a safe place, then this video should be fine to watch but if it’s a bit conservative or something…then maybe wait til you’re in the bathroom.

14 thoughts on “faggot – not just a bundle of sticks anymore

  1. My initial reaction was for me to say crack their jaw.. violence doesn’t resolve anything but at least they will think twice next time…. as I watched the video and realized its some bum,… my thoughts Changed…. words and labels don’t define u.. u define u… and u are strong and beautiful…. try to make this into something possitive… and educate the “dumb”

  2. Some people are not worth the energy. Don’t let his word get under your skin. Whether spoken from lunacy or lucidity, he was purposefully trying to get to you for not fulfilling his request. If it wasn’t you, he would have been calling the next person he approached something else derogatory. Don’t give the word power!

  3. whoa…

    I’m so sorry you were told that… the weirdest thing of all is that it’s reserved for men and that shows how he perceived you, even though he greeted you with “Miss.” ….. I’m so not sure how to feel about that…

    Would you have felt differently if he called you a bitch?
    It’s a weird thing to prefer 1 insult over another.
    Which one is less hate filled, if any?
    And if one prefers a certain insult over the other, why?

    I’m not asking you to answer those for me, those are just some questions that your experience makes me think of.

    • “would you have felt differently if he called you a bitch”

      u know, noemi, i was wondering that same exact thing myself.

      i’m going to make another video and go into a little more depth on that issue.
      AND the issue about me being a woman and being called a faggot…

      i didnt wanna just ramble on and i needed like some time to get my head straight.
      thanks 4 leaving love and sharing your voice 2.

  4. When I was a teenager and really goth, I would wear fishnets under my torn up jeans, fish net shirts with latex pants and had long crazy hair and I was kind of androgynous. One day at a diner, this guy saw me with my arms around my female friend and said “fucking Dykes” so I turned around and said “what did you say?” and then he said “oh shit, fucking FAGGOTS.” No matter what I was I was clearly (queerly) outside his safely policed gender borders.

    Later in high school when I had to beat the shit out of someone who called me a faggot, before I walked away I said to them “Now you can go home and tell your mama a Faggot beat your ass.”

    From then on I felt it as a word of empowerment. I’m not “gay,” in that happy go lucky middle class white homo you see in Chelsea, I’m a faggot as in “fuck you I will stand up for my space, and knock some heads about if I need to.”

    Recently, I’ve had to reconsider this because, if my friends use it I’m ok with it but not if it’s used by others. That doesn’t make sense.

    Then again with your experience, there’s all kindsa crazies seeking reaction using loaded words, so it’s probs best you just walked away. You never know what he might’ve done.

    • “now you can go home and tell your momma a faggot beat your ass”

      AHH!!!!! that’s awesome!!! Omg that sounds like a Moth story podcast in the making.

      thanks for sharing this with me, Michael.

      How did you feel about being called a “dyke” and being a man?

      that’s another thing my next video is gonna be about…cuz it’s like this dude knew i wasn’t normal, per se, and i guess for him faggot is what u call a not normal person?

      idk…so interesting.

      • I thought being called a dyke was hilarious because my representation then was clearly not gender normative, a la, fishnets, ripped up tight black jeans, long black hair, piercings, black nail polish…it actually made me laugh because I realized it wasn’t about sexuality or gender, they just wanted to say something that hurt, which is why they switched to “faggot” after they ascertained my dick-having. haha!

  5. Ppl in NY carry around with them a high level of hostility… I’ve had ‘normal’ looking crazy dudes holla at me then turn disrespectful if i don’t respond to their ‘hollerin’ … he intentionally tried a mental f*ck with you ;( it’s his way of rubbing his negative energy on you.

    I had this ‘corporate’ tie, suitcase and all ‘white’ man yell out ” move B!tch!” to me on the train one day cause the train was super crowded and I refused to move in deeper in the train so I stood by the door( i don’t want anybody’s dirty body heat/parts rubbing on me). He yelled that out so loud everybody on that train felt sorry for me. Ha!

    You’re not a faggot Miss! I see a beautiful, gifted, young woman, funny and worthy of lots of hugs!

    • yay, more hugs, my favorite. sometimes i feel like the last remaining “hugger” in this city. haha

      my one question for dudes that blatantly and annoyingly and PERSISTENTLY holler at chicks on the street is: what are you really gonna do?

      “yo ma, nice booty, can i get at you? oh aight, nah, nothin, no love, c’mon ma”

      um are u planning on fucking me on the fire hydrant?? or maybe at the bus stop?

      like WTF are you really trying to accomplish here, sir?

      so stupid lol

      • Lol… they really think you gonna say “um, sure, meet me by the alley”… ha! No sir, thats not my ‘profession’ …

        I had one beg for my number, I said no and he threw his business card at me… lol… aggressive man.

        Hope that ‘F’ word is no longer runnin game on your mind… 🙂

        Hugs!

  6. Hey there- great to see you read in Manhattan that night.

    When I got called “faggot” and then “faggotgirl” I believe it was two things: one of them being a way to try to hurt my feelings, and the other being that they didn’t have the vocabulary to know what to call someone like me (a butch dyke in a rural area).

    So in my case, I couldn’t feel too mad about it because being named as gay when in fact, I am gay didn’t hurt my feelings. And I kind of felt sorry for them because they had a limited vocabulary.

    I was lucky that I have a good sense if myself, I bet it would be very scary if someone was younger.

    Did you know I made a super-hero-action-figure of myself as “Faggotgirl”? I make videos of us for YouTube.

    • oohh i gotta check it out!
      hey, wow, thanks for checking out my blog and stuff.
      the reading was awesome all around. 🙂

      and damn, faggot girl? that’s so intense…idk if i woulda been as strong as a kid as I am now.

      aww, now we should hug. hehe

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